Quote: " . . . nothing is forever. There's got to be something better than in the middle." That's from One Headlight - The Wallflowers.
I'm not panicked . . . but I am thinking about leaving this site. I love you all very much . . you've done so much for me. BUT I am tired of fighting this one man battle. I don't really feel that there is anything left to save. By staying here and doing all these thing I feel that I am hurting myself because I feel like I will do them all with the expectation of him EVENTUALLY (even if it took years) coming back. I don't want to wait years for him to make up his mind. I think it's time for me to make it up for him. It's time for me to leave his sorry a$$ the way he keeps leaving mine. Not that I really have a choice . . since he's done it once again. BUT I can choose to close the door and NOT let him coming knocking again.
I am simply done. That's my detachment. I'll be around for awhile . . while I cool off and think somemore. But I am just plain tired . . . through and through . . . I'm tired of waiting . . . I just want to be happy. I just want someone who will love the girls as much as I do. Someone who can REALLY be there .. . and he NEVER has. I'm ready to be done with him.
Thanks for everything guys. See ya later.
That's the dumbest thing you have written and it chaps my ass, Emily. If any one of us could get off this ride that easy, we sure as heck would have.
It ain't over yet, Emily. I know you're tired. Most of us are.
