" . . . nothing is forever. There's got to be something better than in the middle." That's from One Headlight - The Wallflowers.
I'm not panicked . . . but I am thinking about leaving this site. I love you all very much . . you've done so much for me. BUT I am tired of fighting this one man battle. I don't really feel that there is anything left to save. By staying here and doing all these thing I feel that I am hurting myself because I feel like I will do them all with the expectation of him EVENTUALLY (even if it took years) coming back. I don't want to wait years for him to make up his mind. I think it's time for me to make it up for him. It's time for me to leave his sorry a$$ the way he keeps leaving mine. Not that I really have a choice . . since he's done it once again. BUT I can choose to close the door and NOT let him coming knocking again.
I am simply done. That's my detachment. I'll be around for awhile . . while I cool off and think somemore. But I am just plain tired . . . through and through . . . I'm tired of waiting . . . I just want to be happy. I just want someone who will love the girls as much as I do. Someone who can REALLY be there .. . and he NEVER has. I'm ready to be done with him.
