Thanks t2sp. I really don't have time to just think about him 24/7. I used to a lot more than I do now to be honest. It's getting easier.
I think a lot of the problem is, that if he can move on with his life (I.E. being with her like they are married basically) then I don't understand why I "can't" just do the same. Please don't get me wrong . . until our D is final I wouldn't want to be with anyone else because it's really no different than what he is doing. EXCEPT that if I am just waiting for him to file then we both understand that our R is over. HE was with her while WE were suppose to be working on US.
I know I don't need another man right now. I guess I hate that I am just waiting for him and I can't even go on a date or anything . . . is it making sense?
I am moving on . . . I don't have a choice. I have to do new things often to keep myself and the girls taken care of. I certainly don't rely on him for anything . . although I can't wait to get that support. That will be a welcomed break.
I hope it slaps him in the face too. Might sound ignorant . . but maybe it'll make him understand that they ARE HIS RESPONSIBILITY even he never sees them. Well see how it goes.
