My Mt. Everest . . .

[Emily28]

Well Great-Grandma just stopped by . . to give Felina her b-day card . . and she said that, "Grandma and Suz. (MIL and SIL) are definately coming up today"

So . . . I HAVE TO CLEAN!
YIKES!!
Don't know what my H is up to . . I'm guessing he's not coming . . . but at least they are coming to see the baby.

I'll be around later!
Work to be done!

[flip]

lol - I get batwings everytime my H asks if we can 'talk'.

The 1st time it was to tell me he wanted a divorce.
The 2nd time was to tell me he was seeing someone else.
The 3rd time was to tell me he'd been to see a lawyer and try to threaten me into filing on him.

I'm not keen on 'talking' anymore!

[Delil@h]

I hate the MIL clean the house type of clean. {{{{IMO}}}}
....... I feel like I need to move out and start over. And my house is always really clean my one friend says I get up at the crack of dawn and use a toothbrush to clean everything. LMAO.. Good Luck Emily... be beautiful. I know you can have a great day. You are a great MOM.
GOD BLESS...

[Emily28]

I agree to the move out and just start over.
What worse is I don't have real vaccumm. So mine is like that Swifer Flick thing only you plug it in and charge it and then use it.
It's a cool little dirt devil . . .
anywho . . . it hasn't been plugged in . . . OOPS.
So I am waiting for that to charge up.
Oh My . . .
I am hoping my H comes with them and sees his daughters.
Crossing my fingers and praying to God.
I am almost done I think . . . as long as my bedroom stays closed (I threw all my crap in there . . LOL)

One room can be dirty.
Well I have to go finish Felina's bedroom . . . and mop my floors!

BYE GUYS!

[Emily28]

Well I just talked to Thelma (Great Grandma) again and they called and told her they weren't coming because "Kevin got sent to New York City with his truck" . . .

He told me he had to be there SUNDAY at 9 PM . . .
So . . . he was going to still come up . . .
I guess he chose to change his phone and stay down there with her.
Sh*tty.
Nice of anyone to call and tell me.

I guess he's made his choice.
Must be he started to enjoy the time spent with her.

I really am totally out of the running now!
I wonder if he'll really file for the D now?

I guess I was more excited about this weekend. . . at least him dropping her . . .
but he didn't.
He changed his number and left me in the dust again.

I am angry and sad.
I figured I'd at least get a call telling me to f-off. It's not like I have caller ID.

So . . . I'm not sure exactly how to proceed.
I mean I know I'll be fine . .
But I sure am going to miss having him as a friend.
I did really enjoy talking to him.
It's hard to just lose everything about him and move on.
I thought if I could at least keep him as a friend I'd really do great.
But . . . as long as he's with her . . I'm outlawed as are his children.

It's just more broken promises . . .
I should be numb to it by now.
I'm not totally though.
Please tell me what you think.

[RBinBR]

I guess he's made his choice.
Must be he started to enjoy the time spent with her.

I really am totally out of the running now!

Emily, everyone who reads this thread is puking right now. You don't want to be "in the running" for Kevin right now. That's disgusting. Nor do you wamt to file for D right now. What you really want is to leave Kevin alone and keep him at arm's length to give him a chance to grow up and change.

I can only imagine how difficult that is for you. I know you are lonely. I'm lonely too. But it's the best thing for the long term.

[AmyC]

Emily,

Kevin is not worth the effort it would take you to spit much less all this time spent pining away over his sorry ass while he's screwing Cassie and you sit at home TAKING CARE OF HIS CHILDREN and desperately hoping he'll throw a crumb your way while the shadow of what COULD be self-esteem finally showing up gets shoved to the back burner YET ONE MORE TIME!

When are you gonna get it?
HE IS A PIECE OF CRAP.

Can he change?
Certainly.
But he shows absolutely NO desire to do so.

Let him go.

Your only other choice is to stand still, keep the status quo and let him choke the life out of you, Felina and Kiya's Mommy.

[Emily28]

Emily, everyone who reads this thread is puking right now. You don't want to be "in the running" for Kevin right now. That's disgusting. Nor do you wamt to file for D right now.

I ment out of the running as his wife. Not his lover. I did not mean this sexually.

I don't plan to file.
What I said was, "I wonder if he'll file for the D now?"

I almost feel like he was calling the other week just to make sure I am still hanging around waiting for him.

I wish I wasn't.

What you really want is to leave Kevin alone and keep him at arm's length to give him a chance to grow up and change.

I can only imagine how difficult that is for you. I know you are lonely. I'm lonely too. But it's the best thing for the long term.

No choice but to keep him farther away than that.
Like I said he changed his phone number. I have no way to contact him about anything.
The loneliness does hurt . . . I wonder what "the long term" holds. . . a D?
Why am I going to continue to hurt when it's headed there anyway?
Sorry Amy I don't remember what you wrote . . I'll have to post two seperate times . .

[Emily28]

When are you gonna get it?
HE IS A PIECE OF CRAP.

Can he change?
Certainly.
But he shows absolutely NO desire to do so.

I do get that he's a peice of crap. Promise.
I just thought he was gonna drop her off . . and start to show the desire to change.
Boy was I ever fooled.
I feel like an idiot.

I don't understand why HE called ME and did all this once again . . only to do NOTHING about it.

Your only other choice is to stand still, keep the status quo and let him choke the life out of you, Felina and Kiya's Mommy.

I have let him go.
I mean what other choice do I have.
I just keep hope that he'll come back.
Are you saying I should just shut the door and move on?
I'm sooo confused.

[Emily28]

I'm STILL confused.
I feel a little better this morning.

Now I'm wondering if he isn't trying to get my hurt and mad and upset enough to file for the D.
Well he's got another thing . . .I'll drag the damn thing out as long as I can if/when he does finally file.
I got games I can play too . . . he's not the only one with tricks up his sleeve.