I just wanted to add that I mostly feel calm but it's like there are a bunch of bats flying around inside me every great once and I awhile. I call it "batwings" Like "butterflies" (GOD I HATE THIS . . that's why he calls her butterfly) are suppose to be excitement . . batwings are when you are anticipating something bad coming.
I'm doing alright I guess. . . but I sure could us some reinforcement. I prayed lastnight . . . and I actually felt a black "cloud" leaving me . . . and I felt TOTAL peace for awhile. But after tossing and turning ALL night . . . the seed has been replanted and I am starting to panic.
