Quote: I am honestly expecting him to choose her over us once again . . so I guess maybe my expectations are sub zero.
Okay, I am going to DB you...
If he chooses you over OW - what are you going to be doing differently? What is he going to be doing differently? What is he going to be doing/saying differently?
It is one thing to want to see him, it is another to allow this to tear you down. I would recommend looking absolutely fabulous when/if he sees you this weekend. But for you - my opinion is that you look increadible and make him want you - but keep your distance. Let him pursuit you a bit so you can turn him down - in a nice way (I'm excited you feel this way. I would like to take it slow....).
You can be committed to your M but set boundaries and look out for you.
BTW - don't feel bad about the child support. If he was giving up the money already - it would be one thing. But he isn't and like it or not - the girls are his responsibilty too. So he is obligated to pay.
