This was left for Amy . . but it said A LOT to me so I am posting it here . . .that way maybe I'll reread and remember it.
Quote: Don't think so Amy. There are as many paths as there are thoughts. It's real frustrating to think you've only got two choices, that's not rational thinking Amy. That's why most people end up D. Because they think there's only two options, in or out. But there's this huge middle ground that some of us not so fondly call limbo. It's that time of indecision, unmet expectations, unsurety, fear, instability, and soul searching. It's that dark night that feels like hell until it's embraced. Until the monster is stared down and defeated through courage, strength and faith. You know your coming out of it when you begin to accept and embrace your life just the way it is and find peace and joy in the moment. Trusting that everything happens for a purpose, that God has a plan for our lives. It is a long road with many turns and snags. Take the road less traveled by Amy. The one that God will lay out before you if you ask Him to.
I am very confused. I am trying to take my sitch back . . that's why I am battling this now. I am trying to see only in black and white . . but there are definately shades of gray. Is my H right? HELL NO. Am I? No.
I just need to recline and watch my wave . . . jeesh! Stupid Emily thinking she can always take care of anything.
I probably wouldn't fight God over this half as hard if I was really ready for my M to be over . . because I wouldn't care which way it went. But I DO! That's why I get stressed out and hope my H will make the right decisions. Has he yet though? NO Maybe he really will change . . . although I have seen NO forward motion what so ever. I mean what he did today REALLY hurt me and made me feel like $hit. Should I tell him or should I once again eat my tongue?
