Every time we lie awake After every hit we take Every feeling that I get But I haven’t missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake By every sigh and scream we make All the feelings that I get But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you Why do I love you I hate everything about you Why do I love you
Every time we lie awake After every hit we take Every feeling that I get But I haven’t missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you Why do I love you I hate everything about you Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think About you, I know Only when you stop to think About me, do you know
I hate everything about you Why do I love you You hate everything about me Why do you love me
I hate You hate I hate You love me
I hate everything about you Why do I love you
(I hate) Everything About You - Three Days Grace
Ok . . now then . . .
The more I sit and the more I get nervous about this weekend. The more I think about my H and everything that has happened. The more I realize that I am happier without him. . . I think.
I mean when he leaves it turns me upside down for awhile but I always find such peace . . . when he comes back it pushes ALL my buttons sends me into some kind of hyperdrive . . it wears me down and then he ALWAYS leaves again.
SO . . . WTH am I doing? WHY AM I STILL HERE???
That's the whole truth today.
As I was sitting outside lastnight praying . . . I realize that I really don't care if he comes back . . . I'm decently happy without him. I'd rather he stayed gone . . it hurts to try and trust him. . it's hard. I just prayed and prayed . . . and I still feel the same way. WHAT AM I DOING?
