Quote: Why do you want to do this? Are you trying to push some buttons or force some issues? What are you hoping to accomplish by doing this?
I think that may have been taken out of context to what I ment. I ment more of . . I don't want him to just come back and expect to snuggle up on the couch and ML and act like there was never a problem . . which is the way it's been every other time he came to visit. I excepted him back into MY home . . MY bed and MY heart . . as if nothing happened. AND . . as many of you have seen . . reality strikes . . and it's left me on my knees crying. I don't want to be there again.
I in NO way want to push him away . . I don't want to act cold or mean or anything . . I simply do NOT want all the hurt to come flooding back.
I think I can act like I would with any of my friends . . NO PROBLEM there . . . but what if he expects more. I don't want it to be weird like when that other guy was here and kept trying to make passes at me. I don't know if I can resist my H.
That's the problem. . . Don't worry guys . . I'm not too stressed . . . it's just a worm in the back of my brain.
