Quote: Take a mental vacation from the sitch for a week, okay?
Definately!
Thank RB . . . I do appreciate you pushing me. I prayed A LOT lastnight . . . I feel good today. Nothing to new to report. I'm just gonna stand down for awhile. Thanks guys! I'll be cruising the boards! I'm gonna go check out your thread right now Amy.
I've decided to ride the wave for awhile.
I'm resting up . . .saving engery and REFOCUSING!!
Taking the focus off of my R and onto other things.
Trying anyway . . . so far so good
Well just wait and see exactly what he does.
I'll go from there
Thanks Santhony! Something must have worked. The peace I have felt today has been WONDERFUL. Today I didn't really think about the sitch. I feel like I left it alone. More praying to do tonight and more work tomorrow. We'll just see where this sucker goes.
I have talked to my H . . . twice as a matter fact. He called me both times. Short friendly convo. No R talk . . although he does still say ILY. His mother and little sister are coming up on Sat. with him in tow (since his car isn't running) to see the Kiya and Felina. That takes certain pressures off and puts others on. Oh well! It'll all work out. I'm glad that "Grandma" is finally taking some real interest!
Until then I'm riding the wave and watching it progress. Expectations are at ZERO . . THANK YOU GOD!! I expect nothing but a pleasant visit with the other side of the family. I think that's reasonable.
Well absolutely NOTHING new to talk about. Not even any new thoughts. My brain is amazingly calm.
I poured my heart out to God lastnight. Amy you just kept coming up. . I wasn't even thinking I just started praying and let my mouth go . . . I think I prayed for ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. I even prayed for Cassie . . . weird, it just came out.
I'm still coasting along . . . seeing where I can go without doing anything. Sitting back and not worrying . . just watching is nice. I can't believe I'm actually able to do it so far. Hope you all have a wonderful day . . . I'll be cruising around
It's a horrible 8 months . . TERRIBLE. BUT . . . I'm so thankful it happened. Coming here and meeting all of you has made me look long and hard at myself. I am becoming a better person. I would have never looked at it as I have if not for you all! I will never be able to repay you . . hell I'll probably never even met any of you! But . . .
THANK YOU SOOO MUCH. . . from the VERY VERY bottom of my heart! Thank you!