hey all. first time here. I need help. My wife of 10 years and my High School sweat heart has just filed for divorce and I cant blame her. When we were going out everything was perfect. We got married and had 3 healthy kids. Everything was going fine until....I started bieng an [censored]. Now everything Im about to tell you is MY fault I blame nobody but myself. My wife goes out of her way to make sure me and the kids were WELL taken care of. I hardly ever said thank you. I never told my wife how beautiful she is. I told her I didnt like make up ( truth be told i am kinda jealous but was hiding it). Before we were married I messed around on her and she found out. We made it work though. 8 years later stupid me did it again. And she found out. Now before I go on I must say that I like to talk [censored] to women. Im not a hater dont get me wrong but I would make comments I thought were funny and everyone laughed with, even my wife. On the INSIDE. I didnt know. She was actually embarrassed of me and couldnt stand it.I drank ALOT. She even put me in jail once for hitting her which I have never done again. Last weekend we had a party. Everyone was drunk. EVEN ME! Well all that [censored] talking came out as usual but somehow it went to far. Me and her best friend were upstairs and she walked in. Now at that point nothing happened. That night I was so mad, and I dont know why, I left and went to her friends house. Still nothing happened, but I still went anyways. I had the chance to explain myself the next day but laid in bed recovering instead of doing what I shoukd have done. PROFUSELY APOLOGIZING. At this point she started packing my things and kicked me out. I was still drunk when I left because I didnt care. When I drink I care about nothing. When I sobered up and started thinking about what I did i realized that I really [censored] up. My chances were over. I got served divorce papers today, but still know we can work through this. I am in AA, and going to counseling. Now its only been less than a week and I know its gonna take alot of time to work through this. My question to you is, " how do I fix this? What would the husband/wife in this situation do? I love my wife with all my heart and dont want to hurt her, but I am scared and i know she is to even though she dont admit it. I want to be with her forever and dont wanna a divorce. Can anyone help me?
