I have to let you all know that I am so proud of myself today. I feel so good about myself!

Last night my husband had to work over at his bar, which stunk because he had appts all day. I wouldnt be able to spend anytime with him at all. Midday he stopped home with a doz of roses and telling me that he appreciated my patience today and how bad he felt that I was left with all these kids all day(4 out of 7 are sick). That just made me so happy.

We had discussed me visiting the bar to watch some of the Steeler game, but blew it off because we would never find a sitter. But I had already lined someone up to watch them.(They would all be in bed anyways). So 9:30 I went over , and was he surprised. So happy yelling and yahooing. Well embarassing me but also making me feel good. About 10:00, the OW came into the bar. This would be the 1st time I ever saw. I asked him if it were her. He said "yes". I then calmly asked, If he would ask her to leave. He replied "no".I got angry, but not irrational. He told me that she came in with her mother and didnt wamt to let her mother know that there were issues. The girl is 18. "I hope".The mom is a reg customer. And he fears that by her mother knowing that she will tell people and it would ruin business. I somewhat agree. So I calmly walked past the Ow(girl) and whispered in her ear that she had better leave and make it now. And she walked right out the door.

But H was acting like a fool. He told me he respected the way I handled it. But him on the other hand was sweating and kept telling me "Im leaving, Im shutting down" It was so much fun to watch him stuggle. He was like a rat in a corner. He never prepared himself to what he would do if she came in, or how would he react. He expected me to carry on like a raving lunatic, embarassing him and myself. But NEVER, he did all the embarassing already. I will not lower myself. So today I am just beaming! I feel like there are rays of joy streaming from my eyes.(corny I know). Him on the other hand is miserable. I keep trying to make him in a happy mood, but he said "I dont feel like being happy"...wonder why?

I did tell him that last night needs to be addressed. But he is not ready to talk about it. I will give him some time and then we will discuss it. but we will not let it be and ignore how he was feeling.

Give a smile for me today. Keep a smile for you!



Kim Me34 H39 married 10 yrs S12 D8 D6 b/g twins 2 b/g twins 1 H had PA 5/06 ended it 8/06