Kim, I know it is so hard.The mental picture is hard to block.I guess you try to think that they didn't do this to you[even though it does feel like it]but,more so they did it to themselves.They are the ones who are very miserable also.If we don't forgive them they lose everything.And if we do forgive,they constantly deal with trying to show us trust once again.It is never easy.Try to realize it is not you.They messed up.Eventually,trust does come back.I thought i would never believe it would,but it did.You know the warning signs now.You can spot when there is trouble up ahead.Your conversations are more open.You learn how strong you really are,how forgiving you can be.You are a good person.No you are not a push-over,or easy,or a door-mat.You are forgiving.It is strange how those we love the most can anger us and hurt us the most.It is only because we do love them. I never thought i would stay with my H if he cheated on me.When it happened i had a choice,to stay or leave.It wasn't easy.I think leaving would have been hard also.Either way it is tough.Have you ever heard the saying "if someone does you wrong the first time it is their fault,if they do you wrong the second it is your fault.?" I know that doesn't apply to Christ.He is the all forgiving. I hope that you can heal quickly,take care ,K
