Is it unfair to take the sex back?

[74Kim]

Welp, today was a good day. Until H called me and told me he is meeting a few friends for drinks. I am left alone daily for 9 hours with 4 babies and 3 kids. Then he wants to stay out longer. I am so angry. He did ask if it was okay. I let him know it bothered me, but let him make the choice. Well, he made the wrong one. I do believe he is with the guys, but I cant stand the pressure here at home. I need him home, and he knows that. I am afraid if I take a fit everytime he does something, its gonna go back right where we were. But he is the one that had the A why does he get to go do what he pleases. He shouldnt go anywhere. I hate him so badly right now. I had such a great day.

As for me finding something for myself...When? I literally have no time. If I got a life of my own, I would feel better. But, That is not gonna happen anytime soon. Until I can find something that starts at minight, I am screwed!

Please calm me down!