hugs)))))))) sorry you feel bumbed! I so hear you about feeling weird about other girls (I had boob envy for a while) But honestly, you don't know that your H is thinking that way, if he is really trying to please you most likely he feels awful for being so weak and for letting you down. Choose each day which road you'll take, the road to misery that leads nowhere and harms the budding R you guys are working on, or the one who has a great potential to build your M and make it stronger.
My H half forgot my b-day, got me gifts and cake at the last hr (he had planned a huge to do for OP w rings, trips,ect) . I was pretty bumbed about that, give your H some browny points for trying to make you happy, ok?
There are bound to be all sorts of women out there, some more or less attractive/young that us. But our Hs choose to be w/us because -even if you dont' believe this right now- men want someone to connect with, not only a pretty face. I had lost so much weight that a few times my H was confused as to why and he'd say "you know, i didnt' leave because I thought you were fat" as if that's the main reason I lost weight, OP at the time was chubby, so there you have it.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
