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We are better than ever. I know every sitch is different, but for you; When you and you H were mending things was he great, in his actions? Really proving a change? If so, other than this thing your upset about now; Is he still great? Maybe none of these Q refer to you. But for me, My H is being wonderful. I am waiting for that to end. Waiting for him to blow up.




You are very lucky that your H is doing so much, I get nothing from mine, no reasurance, no affection, no attention. He is home yes, but that's it, I know he still has lots of turmoil & still finding himself, but that doesn't help me any, non of my needs are met.

Don't fortune tell and think the worst, focus on the negative and you'll get negative results. I'm just coming out of that anger of finding out my H's A dept. I can tell you know that he's lied through his teeth and that i have no reason to trust him, but you know what? I'm closing my eyes and stepping forward to trust him, (just like that scene from Indiana Jones, when he just has to believe the bridge is there and he gives a first step where there is not visible bridge.

Whenever I start to remember what I read (found letters and picts) about H's PA I make my brain begin the sentence with "when my H had sh*t on his brains he...) and that helps to stop my mind wanderings.
I pray that we both get over this in half the time we think it will take, we WILL put it behind us.


Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.