Well whatisis and I have our own view on happiness. I will save that for another day.

****because my children should bring me all the happpiness in the world, and I cant even focus on them.

Well you should. They deserve that. If nothing else push it all down and give them what they deserve JMHO.

****I get angry at H for putting me in a place like this.

That's OK. You should be angry. It's all a part of the healing process. Just don't stay there. If you do the anger will turn into bitterness. That's not a good thing.

****Therapy starts next Tues! Yeah! Can't wait to go.

Do I sense some sarcasm here? I hope not. Reaching out is the first step. If I misunderstood I apologize.