Is it unfair to take the sex back?

[74Kim]

Yeah, I kinda am jumping around. When I first posted, I went straight to newcomers. But then I thought that I probably fit the extramartial affair forum better.

I guess I knew the answer to the question, before I asked it. I know I need to talk to him about it. But I think I want it as bad as as I dont want it. Make sense? I am weak when it comes to that area. I always cave. Even when we met.
As for him to understand, I know he would. He would continue to try, but not push.

I feel I dont fit "The mold".Are him and I not being honest with ourselves? I have been trying to soul search and go over our past, and it really has been good, until the affair. Well, until the 2nd set of twins. Which were born in Nov. But I cant even say that. Because for 4 months after thier birth he was a miracle man. He was wonderful. All I did was compliment him and Kiss his butt for how great he was. Then BAM he changed into a miserable self centered coc.So I knew it was the stress from the house and kids. So I really dont take this affair personal. I know I was doing the best job I could with 7 kids and 4 babies, and a household. Not to mention a MLC victim. I cant even say it is a MLC. Its was only 4 months. But he did buy a motorcycle, and thought the world revovled around him. But anyways He swears up and down that It was not me at all. I did not push him in anyway to do this. But I still cant help but 2nd guess.

Thanks!