help me cope please!

[74Kim]

Thank you for the book suggestion. The only thing I know that the future may hold is that this will make me stronger. Make our relationship stronger. I know that we need to rediscover "us". We completely lost that along the way. I do have his complete cooperation in this though. And I refuse to give up a dream of us and our kids. I am too determined. I will not allow him to have one major mistake to take himself out of the game. He doesn't want that anyways.
He was the one to come clean with me. I suspected, and asked him only a couple times, but one day he just came out with it.

I just wish I could get all the visuals out of my mind.

I do need to find interests for myself, such as aerobics. I do nothing but take of the kids. I don't even know what I like. I need something strenuous!

Thanks Again!