That's an interesting observation, that I may be projecting how I might feel in H's shoes (in terms of retaliation). Thanks for pointing that out. Something I can work on putting out of my mind, especially if it's poisoning the process of healing. You are getting me to a place where I can understand him better.
JokerMan, although I started my posts by saying I didn’t think that H's punishment (well, that's what I thought it was then) wasn't a healthy way for us to heal, I think I secretly want to be reprimanded for what I did. I know I've always been hard on myself and I know it's not healthy. Did you learn things about yourself from all the questions that people asked you?
Do either of you know how I should respond to my H when he asks direct questions about sex with the OM?
I found that it was me who was unable to initiate or participate in sex for the first while, not him. Yet here I see a lot of the opposite reaction taking place, it makes me curious. I can honestly say that it didn't have anything to do with the OM, only with the fact that I no longer thought I deserved my H.
