Morning all! Yah, it's just 10:29pm here in lovely Hawaii but everyone is fast asleep! LOL
Just a little journaling since it's been over 10 days. Wow!, Sometimes time just flies by. If only our sitches could be worked out that readily.
Well, had d5 b-day last week Sat. Went well. Definitely alot less stressful when you don't have to cook and just do pizza! I've got to remember that for s7 bday coming up. H actually came back the next day and cooked breakfast, then he crashed for a couple of hours before he headed out to have lunch with SIL. Then gone for another couple of hours. Took the kids out for dinner at our fav. japanese restaurant. I turned my cell to vibe. H calls but I didn't answer. Then he called again about 30 - 45 minutes later. I picked up. He asked what we were doing. I said having dinner at Kunio's. He said, "mmmm," and asked if it was late to put in an order. I said, no we just started dinner. Placed an order for him. He came w/in 10 minutes. His meal came about the same time. So he spent probably another 30 minutes or so with us and then I went to pay for the meal. We went out and headed back to the car. Got the kids in and they started to ask him if he was going back to work. He skirted around the question. We haven't told them that daddy actually moved out. They just think he "works" alot. He has been for the last couple of weeks, but they haven't realized that he's not been coming home.
We had dinner yesterday just us two. Haven't had much time for "us," with him working so much for a new promotion. It went alright. Had a hard time looking at him directly in the eye some of the time while I was conversing. He did ask "how the baby books are going for the kids?" I said, "not." I didn't get upset like I use to. He would always ask if I had done this or taken care of that. Would drive me crazy before, but now it doesn't. Not that I don't feel it's important or that I'm going to do it just because he feels "I" should do it. I'll do it when I'm ready to do it and I'll do it for me, not for him. Or should I? Should I use that as part of the 180? Any input on that? I don't want to be doing all this stuff just because he wants me to do it or do I for the 180? Not sure.
Told myself I was going to keep it light and upbeat! I think I did for the most part just updating him with what's been going on with the kids.
After dinner, he walked me to my car and I gave him a kiss on the lips. Headed back to see the kids before I headed home. After I got out of the shower, I noticed he sent a tm. Said, " night." I replied and said "nite too, and to call tomorrow so we could talk some. Well tomorrow is tonite and he hasn't called. Not that I was waiting by the phone. The house is a mess and I had laundry to do!
Anyway, we haven't had any R talk for over 2 months and I wanted to know where things stood. It's been bugging me (more like eating me up) lately. Trying to keep myself busy. Right now, the feeling has subsided, but tomorrow is another day.
