Hi all. Haven't been posting for awhile, thought I'd journal for this past week. H came early this morning to spend time w/kids and I. H has been working so much lately, hasn't been spending time w/ kids as much as he should and as much as I'd like him to. Had breakfast, went to help SIL with a new water heater and then we headed out to Farrells. After waiting for an hour and half (they just re-opened) we finally got in. Wasn't all that unfortunately, not like the good ole days. On the way there s6 asked H why SIL and BIL had their own houses. Don't know where that came from, but H proceeded to explain that they didn't get along anymore and were living in different houses. Couldn't stand the thought of the question, so I turned on the music in the truck. That was an awkward moment.

It's been a little over a month since he moved out. Have slowly started to detach and go dark. He surprised us on labor day cuz he snuck in quietly into the house w/o me knowing it and came up behind me while I was on the computer. That was a really nice surprise but at the same time, very emotional because we haven't seen him much with him working alot in the last couple of weeks. I went into our bathroom and cried. It was too overwhelming. I've missed him so much, and trying to detach and go dark, it jus got to me. I think he noticed after I got it "all out," but he didn't say anything.

Wednesday he came over for a short while again to join us for dinner. Then he went back to work. Friday, the kids had a school fair and I couldn't take them because of inventory at work. He squeezed some time to meet up w/my mom and kids at the school. Later that day I checked my vm, and he left me a message saying that he called to say he was "thinking of me." I was pleasantly shocked. And that he left me something at home to show he was thinking of me. How excited I was to go home! We got done w/inventory early, so I headed home after dropping off 3 of my co-workers. It was a dozen red roses I couldn't believe he did that! How I thought of that, but didn't expect it. I text him late that evening to thank him for the beautiful flowers. That was the first since he moved out that he has shown or said anything like that.

It's been weird and quiet because of going dark. I made my own appt. with the MC to meet next week Friday, which is our usual day to meet together, but I'm expecting to go by myself. I don't know if he has re-scheduled for the last one he wasnt' able to make because of work. Feeling better about myself, and MC notices too. Just need to keep plugging away to take care of myself, the kids, and GAL.