I am saying goodbye. I really hope things work out for you. You are stronger than you think and can do more than you know. Take care of your babies but take care of yourself first, as that will make it all much easier.
You can do this. It's a good fight that you are fighting but you can only fight so much. Kevin has to fight his own way back home.
PLEASE believe that you are worthy of someone treating you well and do not ever accept less.