I talked to my Mom and she told me that my brothers wife has thyroid cancer. She had a surgery and they tested it and it came back malignant. My Mom was talking about how worried they all were and stuff. She said, "Ya know you think your life is bad and then something like this happens." I said something about I know because of Kiya's sitch. She blew it off with, "Oh they'll fix that kidney." I knew what she ment. But . . . I've seen the life that Wendy (Kevin's aunt with kidney failure) lives. I've watched her go to dialysis three times a week . . I've seen what it does. I've watched her go in and out of the hospital. It's scary . . . I keep thinking about that life for MY baby. It's sooo scary. I mean YES it's horrible for my SIL . . . but they think they can get it with one surgery! *we're praying* SCARY! But she's not 6 weeks old . . at least she's had some life.
It just really put my sitch in perspective for me. Yes . . what's going on with my marriage is horrible. . . but my daughter has bigger problems. Where should I be focusing? ON THOSE GIRLS! I wish he could be here to focus with me . . . but . . . that's his decision. One I have to let him make on his own.
I'll set boundaries if/when he takes those first steps to coming back . . Until then like Kiya's sitchs it's a waiting and watching game. I have to Let Go and Let God.
Inner peace is coming back a little! Pray for all of us!
