Thanks Muddle . . . we posted too close or I would have changed that post
I don't understand. I mean I sort of do. But I don't see shade of gray. . only black and white. I mean to me it's either he and I are together or we're not. Know what I mean. I don't see not filing but not really being together in a R. Obviously I don't see filing and being in an R either. It's one or the other. . . not both. I don't understand how a marriage can be considered anything if it's not even a talking R. I guess it's a focus thing. I don't enjoy feeling like this. I would give anything to put myself back on level ground. I don't know. I HATE IT. I just can't escape my own stupid thinking. I don't get how to change it.
I couldn't keep myself detached . . . no matter what now I'm hurt. I mean I'm hurt because they are still together 24-7 so I know he's sleeping with her at night . .
GOD ....... STOP! I'm leaving now . . I'll be back later!
