Am I missing something? Did your H come back or want to come back and now wants out again? Or are you just confused about what you want to do?
I hate to be a broken record but you have to work on EMILY whether or not your H is in your life. So set your goals and your path - DO NOT CHANGE IT NO MATTER WHAT YOUR H WANTS! To change your path is to let someone else control your destiny. You have done it before, don't do it again. You are in control of you. Your H needs to work on himself. If he doesn't do that, then your M may not work anyway. Focus on Emily - if Kevin wants to come back at some point, have your boundaries and conditions ready for him. Sorry I cannot be more help than this, but you are derailing Emily again because Kevin's train is rolling into town.
Quote: I make one mean cake if I do say so myself. I LOVE baking . . . and I'm honestly not half bad at it. Ask my H. . . I make the best cookies (BIG too) . .
Now we are moving somewhere. You didn't mention you could bake nor did you mention that you are good at it and like it. This is a spring board for doing something new. Bake away - make cookies. Take some baking/cooking classes to improve your skills. Heck you could even turn it into a money maker if you sell your items. I know a lady who used to sell birthday cakes all the time right from her home. This IMHO is the kind of thinking you should be focused on.
Hang in there Emily. I wish your little one a happy birthday. Have fun and stop worrying about your H - right now - he is not worth this worry.
