Well the cake is done. Frosted and all! Looks good! YUMMMMY!
Can't wait till 3 . . . I make one mean cake if I do say so myself. I LOVE baking . . . and I'm honestly not half bad at it. Ask my H. . . I make the best cookies (BIG too) . . Anywho . . .
I'm stressed today . . but I'm shoving it back . . I just need to forget about him . . It's hard cause he calls and chats with me. It's hard to not want him to come back.
I mean I've been in love with this person for 4 years . . and overnight I'm asking myself to try to JUST be friends. I don't know how to be JUST his friend and not have that underlying feeling. So I'm falling back a$$ over teacups . . . and who knows what he'll do. Heartbreak seems to be the only sure thing.
Is it worth the risk? Why not . . . I feel it anyway . . why not try again? What's one more time when I've been through this 4 or 5 times already? LOL! Maybe eventually I'll just become TOTALLY numb to it. But d@mn if I'm not thick skinned or hard headed.
At least MAYBE this time I can go into with rock hard boundaries . . . I flex for him too much. How do I cut that out. I just always want to cut him slack (I think I'll be this way with my kids as they get older and older). How do I make it stick?
