Can't keep me down
Can't keep me down, down
Can't keep me down
I said you can't keep me down
You know you can't keep me down
I said you can't keep me down
Hey, hey, man! What's your problem?
I see you tryin' to hurt me bad
Don't know what you're up against
Maybe you should reconsider
Come up with another plan
Cuz you know I'm not that kinda girl
That'll lay there and let you come first
You can push me out the window
I'll just get back up
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler truck
And I won't give a f--
You can hang me like a slave
I'll go underground
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler but
You can't keep me down, down, down, down
Can't keep me down, down
Can't keep me down, down, down
Can't keep me down, down
Hey, hey, girl! Are you ready for today?
You got your shield and sword?
Cuz its time to play the games
You are beautiful
Even though your not for sure
Don't let him pull you by the scar
You're gonna get your feelings hurt
You can push me out the window
I'll just get back up
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler truck
And I won't give a f--
You can hang me like a slave
I'll go underground
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler but
You can't keep me down, down, down, down
You can push me out the window
I'll just get back up
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler truck
And I won't give a [censored]
You can hang me like a slave
I'll go underground
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler but
You can't keep me down, down, down, down
Everywhere that I go
There's someone waitin' to chain me
Everything that I say
There's someone tryin' to short-change me
I am only this way
Because of what you have made me
And I'm not gonna break!
You can push me out the window
I'll just get back up
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler truck
And I won't give a f--
You can hang me like a slave
I'll go underground
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler but
You can't keep me down, down, down, down
Just sharing . . . we all need encouragement right?
Nothing better than a good song.
I just realized how truly prefect this song is . . given my H's recent career choice!
TOO FUNNY!!!!!!!
Nobody has ever said your were stupid for still loving him. For most of us, and yes, this applies to those that HAVE the affairs as well as those left in their dust, love is not something that can be turned on and off. The thing you have to be careful of is that love makes you blind to things that could be ultimatly destructive to you and the kids. Taking him back now, without SOME kind of lasting actions to back up any words he may use to describe his feelings, would, yes, be stupid in my book.
I think you are perfectly normal to still love him and also to want the "old" him back. I also think it's great that you now recognize that the man he is today is NOT the man you married, or that you want in your life. Keep that perspective, keep working on you and please, keep those babies happy.
Quote: I think you are perfectly normal to still love him and also to want the "old" him back. I also think it's great that you now recognize that the man he is today is NOT the man you married, or that you want in your life. Keep that perspective, keep working on you and please, keep those babies happy.
I've said that to EVERYONE . . . he's just not the same person.
I hate that.
I'm trying to patiently wait!
and don't worry GH . . .
I'll keep my babies as happy as they can be They mean the absolute world to me.
Alright now that my mom dropped off the cake pan . . I have a cake to make!
"Screwball Cake" . . . YUMMMM
Well the cake is done. Frosted and all! Looks good! YUMMMMY!
Can't wait till 3 . . . I make one mean cake if I do say so myself. I LOVE baking . . . and I'm honestly not half bad at it. Ask my H. . . I make the best cookies (BIG too) . . Anywho . . .
I'm stressed today . . but I'm shoving it back . . I just need to forget about him . . It's hard cause he calls and chats with me. It's hard to not want him to come back.
I mean I've been in love with this person for 4 years . . and overnight I'm asking myself to try to JUST be friends. I don't know how to be JUST his friend and not have that underlying feeling. So I'm falling back a$$ over teacups . . . and who knows what he'll do. Heartbreak seems to be the only sure thing.
Is it worth the risk? Why not . . . I feel it anyway . . why not try again? What's one more time when I've been through this 4 or 5 times already? LOL! Maybe eventually I'll just become TOTALLY numb to it. But d@mn if I'm not thick skinned or hard headed.
At least MAYBE this time I can go into with rock hard boundaries . . . I flex for him too much. How do I cut that out. I just always want to cut him slack (I think I'll be this way with my kids as they get older and older). How do I make it stick?
Quote: I would LOVE to know why women love complete a$$holes . . . seems to fit my sitch to a T!
Sheesh I would love to know this too. I am in love with a jerk with a nice a$$. I dunno why we are in love with them ? .... it is just a feeling and like you said it doesn't die overnite. I sometimes think it would be easier to turn it off like a faucet so it does not hurt so much. WHAT I WILL TELL YOU and I am not much for advice you know, I am more about moral support.
I think that you love him so much it clouds everything, been there done that, I would like for you to keep levelheaded.This is a great big request on my part.RemeMber how he waivers and how he needs to find his feelings for himself. I let my H do this {{ IT WAS REAL HARD, IT WAS LIKE I WAS SITTING ON MY HANDS}and now I am making the mistake of thinking I can make him see things and make him see that he is hurting me and change. THIS DOES NOT WORK, LIKE MANY HAVE TOLD ME HERE ----------------->YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOU.
They will only change when they are good and ready not any time before that. I think you are doing well. I am going to read more about what has happened in the past two days and post again, Sorry I have been busy working for my H. I do not get a salary I just work for him, he is self employed. I want you to keep smiling , stay calm , keep the Pma and keep strong. You can do this you just need to KEEP CALM AND REMEMBER YOU ARE WORTH ALOT , just like you tell me.. God bless...
Am I missing something? Did your H come back or want to come back and now wants out again? Or are you just confused about what you want to do?
I hate to be a broken record but you have to work on EMILY whether or not your H is in your life. So set your goals and your path - DO NOT CHANGE IT NO MATTER WHAT YOUR H WANTS! To change your path is to let someone else control your destiny. You have done it before, don't do it again. You are in control of you. Your H needs to work on himself. If he doesn't do that, then your M may not work anyway. Focus on Emily - if Kevin wants to come back at some point, have your boundaries and conditions ready for him. Sorry I cannot be more help than this, but you are derailing Emily again because Kevin's train is rolling into town.
Quote: I make one mean cake if I do say so myself. I LOVE baking . . . and I'm honestly not half bad at it. Ask my H. . . I make the best cookies (BIG too) . .
Now we are moving somewhere. You didn't mention you could bake nor did you mention that you are good at it and like it. This is a spring board for doing something new. Bake away - make cookies. Take some baking/cooking classes to improve your skills. Heck you could even turn it into a money maker if you sell your items. I know a lady who used to sell birthday cakes all the time right from her home. This IMHO is the kind of thinking you should be focused on.
Hang in there Emily. I wish your little one a happy birthday. Have fun and stop worrying about your H - right now - he is not worth this worry.
Happy Birthday Felina. Emily wow you got so much great advice. I learn so much from your thread. You were told to be assertive this is great advice. Do not get too mushy with him. He knows he can have his cake and eat it to. And do not throw a pity party either cause other wise you would have to come over to my house and we could talk all day about these "men". My stilettos are on and I will come over there and kick your @$$ , well I will probably wait til tommorrow seeing as it is Felinas B-day. { your lucky LOL} Seriously though take this slow, yeah he probably is sick of her etc. etc. Stay cool and let him sort thru this SH*T by himself , he knows you are there for him or he wouldn't have told you all that stuff. Like I said you got awesome advice these people here are so damn smart. I had a pity party for myself this morning and I better get my @%$$ in line. You have all these wonderful people telling you how to get you SH*T together do it sweetie. Looke how far you have come!!!! I wish I had that many people kicking me {{{ in a loving way}}} in the ass every day. I have alot of work to do to. I listen to the song you Shania song you sent me the other day every day it helps me smile. Once again you can do this little girl , sweet little Emily. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. You make me smile when I am down too. Believe in miracles baby girl but do not get lost in the shuffle . Get ready to kick some @$$ and that @$$ is your own,, be awesome honey. Let him kick himself in the @$$ for being a fool. Let him drop her at the nearest wayside and drive off, let him fight his demons on his own. You keep being you, as hard as it is you can do it.I know you can.Reread all the posts that were sent to you in the past two days they are great. Read them absorb them and do whats right for you.Would he have accepted for you to treat him this way or would you even dare do it ever, You do not have to answer. I know you never would so I do think this time you need to take it slower and work on some real changes. You need to sit down " draw a line in the sand" Know what you want. NO R TALK OR ANYTHING JUST TAKE IT SLOW. AND ONCE AGAIN, REREAD ALL THE ADVICE GIVEN. GOD BLESS... KEEP ME POSTED HAVE FUN TODAY.
Just something that recently helped me. I started re-reading DR (or DB if you want. I like DR better). It is easy to stumble away from the logic that Michelle uses. It was a wakeup call for me and re-focused me. I am not done yet, but just reading about 80 pages or so helped get me re-focused.
Well the cake was GREAT! YUUMMMMMY! Felina kept sticking her fork in the BIG cake and not the peice on her plate! She LOVED it!
Thanks Santhony . . . I'm just scared that if I baked all the time I'd gain about 100 lbs.
SO just to clarify for you dearest Santhony. My H wants to come back AGAIN. He is sick of the OW. I guess spending so much time with her is getting on his nerves. He's stuck with her until the 18 . . . that is unless he drops her in another state . . which would be cruel even for him.
So anywho . . .
The party was FUN! My family however is NOT. They've all been in a funk lately. Don't know what's up with the female hormones around. I'm going to be watching my 13 year old neice Saturday and Sunday . . . so don't be offended if I'm not on a lot . . . I'll probably surrender the computer to her . . LOL!
We had the cake and chips and dip and opened the presents and all the kids ran around on the swings and slides . . . and it was nice. Very pleasant. Felina was very somber today. Not sure why. She fell asleep as soon as we got home and I put her in her highchair . . didn't even eat her real dinner. I didn't get to put her new bedset (that I got her for her b-day) on her bed or anything. Oh well there's always tomorrow. She was all tuckered out! Good party!
I don't know anything else really. Nothing to to update about my sitch. H said he'd try to call tonight if he got service (in Wisconson . . wait did I spell that right?) . . . So we'll see. I'll keep the convo light (tell him about Felina's party and such) . . AVOID all R talk . . and let you know how it goes!
I'll be around guys! Thanks for all the advice! I'll give Felina those b-day hugs tomorrow
I have been busy working for my H. I do not get a salary 
I just work for him, he is self employed. 
