Quote: You can take care of the above matters if he files for divorce, goes back to whatsername, or starts to show you he is going to be a real man
I know . . . since we split back in December. I've gotten MY OWN apartment and I've come a long way. If he did file for the D and go with Cassie . . . I'd be fine. I mean sure the child support would be nice to have. I mean it's hard since I haven't been working (no one wanted to hire a pregnant lady go figure) since I lost my job when he kicked me out and shipped me up here. I am looking for work . . and I have started to go back to school . . . I am working toward being a more self reliant person . . . That's nothing I'm going to stop because of him. It's difficult to tell him no when he wants to do something. But I understand that I have to, and I do it. I.E. - When he talks about getting a different apartment or like he was talking about "US" trading in that old car on a newer one (since it keeps crapping out on us anyway) and I just said, "There would have to be an us first Kevin."
I mean I do understand and I am doing some of those things. Maybe I am crazy because I see all the awful things he's done and is. . . and I still absolutely love him . . I'm still waiting for that sweet guy I met and fell in love with to come back out. Am I just REALLY stupid?
Again I know the odds aren't in my favor (seeings as he still has another 8 days on the road with her) . . and nothing is sure. But am I stupid for even considering this? (I just want HO)
