I'm Still Trying!

[Emily28]

Emily.... geez, two days ago this guy was a wife beating, digital camera stealing, adulterous drug addict.

Remember?

I know it!
None of that has changed.
Of course only 9/10 of it is proven.
Not that it makes it better.

Sorry . . . . I sort of had an attack there.
I got out of the house . . and actually feel better now.
Not leveled yet.
But better.

I don't know exactly what boundaries to set.
I guess that's the big problem . . . that's why he can keep walking on me.
Cause I let him . . . cause I don't really care.

I don't know . . . give me a night or two to sleep on things and I'll find more solid ground.
We'll see if he even ever calls again.
Tomorrow Felina turns two!
It has to be a good day.
I'm not allowed to be cranky on her b-day.
Poor little angel . . .

I'm still lost and confused . . with no clear direction.

I know you all tell me not to let him affect my life but his choices do.
I mean either he's going to file for the D and we will do that or he's not.
It's to totally different courses of action.
I mean really.
Life isn't the same either way.
I'm trying to do this the right way though . .
I just have to figure out how to process the advice given . .
I'm bad at that part.
Sorry