I CAN'T . . . I'm drowning . . I can't focus on a damn thing. I just can't get my head right. NOT AT ALL! I've just . . . I don't know . . . I think I took the dive right off the deep end. WOW . . . He's really sent me spinning. And I can honestly say I wasn't excited or anything . . . I just . . . WOW . . . . I don't know. I don't like that now I'm going to lose my upperhand . . .
I don't like that I feel like I've lost all my grip on reality.
EVERYTHING is driving me crazy today.EVERYTHING . .
