I don't understand how I can except it when my marriage is over if he's the one that walks away. But for me to walk away . . it's devastating.
WAIT I take it back . . I do know why.
He walks away and I love him still. I walk awaya and moves on FAST. I mean hell he's had a girlfriend for 8 months and he and I were still "working it out".
She said they were getting married and yatta yatta yatta. He told me "he loved her more than me" . . so I assumed that she was telling the truth when she said he had talked about marriage and whatnot. I'll never know the truth from him. Doesn't matter anyway.
I don't know what to do.
I don't understand why he puts me in the position where I have to be the one to walk out of our R. I really don't. He's asked to come back . . and I of course told him I did still love him . . and I didn't want a divorce . . etc. It's all VERY true. But I know the heavy R talk is coming. He'll expect things to start over . . . like a magic reset button gets flipped and we'll just move on like this crap never happened. I mean sure he'll do things differently (I hope he lives up to that.)
