I don't know! I guess you all are right! Geesh. . .
I don't know . . maybe I should just change my phone number again. . . . I don't know anymore. This whole thing has me going crazy. I've been mean and nasty all day. I can't get my head right.
I just feel so wrong. Because I just want to try again . . . but I knew that the answer would be NO. I knew it.
I can't do this anymore. I can't stand that I get angry and start to really push him out of my life . . . and then I'm told about having forgiveness (not that it's wrong advice) . . . so I hurt more and then . . . Then when he wants to come back all roads point to divorce. I feel like I am CONSTANTLY going in two or EVEN three somedays . . .different directions. I CANNOT STAND IT ANYMORE!
