It's actually pretty hard to get on my badside Nic. . . don't worry!
Yup you address the correct questions. Well I feel like I finally got my head somewhat above water again. It's definately livable . . . if I notice too many bad days and those sorts of things. I'll call my normal doctor. I really don't feel bad.
I think my parents are worried that something is really wrong because I don't want to go do things with them. But that's because I honestly don't enjoy their company. They just seem "stuffy" to me . . . and when we go out to like Wal-Mart I wind up walking around by myself . . feeling lower than dirt. I'd prefer to go with one of my friends who actually walks and talks with me.
I've actually had a REALLY good day today. I didn't really do anything though. Oh and no mail for me today I was disappointed. I had really hoped to get something. Although on the bright side I didn't get any divorce papers just yet either! I almost feel them coming . . . or maybe that's my imagination. Oh well if they do come . . . he can't force me to sign them right away! HA! Take that punk! I'll show him yet! I'll show him that he can't hold me down. I'll show him that I'm finally done waiting on him . . . He thinks he can walk in and out and come back in 5 years and I'll still be sitting here waiting on him. WRONG!
I really have nothing left for that man right now. He's done EVERYTHING wrong . . . he's hurt me VERY badly . . . and now I feel like he is giving up his daughters for Cassie. I feel that that is SOOOO wrong. Between ANY man and my children there would NEVER be a choice. But he is choosing her over his babies. . . . I HATE him for that. I know here comes RB with the forgiveness and blame stick. Let me have it pal . . I deserve it.
