Wow, you are sounding GREAT, baby!!! Remind me never to get on your bad side.
I'm sorry about Kiya's hearing problem, but being deaf in one ear is not that big a deal, really. I do hope that it's not part of a whole syndrome. But even if it is, you're getting help early on and that's important. I actually have a weird hearing problem that I didn't even know I had till I was in my 20's! I have trouble hearing mid-tones, which tends to be female speaking voices. Strangely, I'm actually a good singer and I can sing by ear (usually--sometimes I have trouble when it's not clear). Anyway, point being, my life has been fine anyway. I guess the only issue for Kiya would be speech development, but you'll just have to make sure she gets lots of input into the good ear.
Quote: My doctor didn't think I need anti-depressants. So I guess that could be bad news. She said if I get to the point where I like cry myself to sleep everynight or anything I should call her back. But with everything going on she thinks what I am feeling is normal. Should I call my primary doctor (not my OB) and get her opinion?
Is this what you wanted me to look at? Gosh, I don't know what to say b/c I'm not a doctor and I don't actually know you. Then again, it's not like your OB spends a ton of time with you either. I think it would be ideal if you could see a psychiatrist. Maybe your doc could refer you to one. The other thing you could ask about is tranquilizers. I started on Rivotril when H dropped the bomb. I went to the ER a total MESS! I was hysterical. The psych there prescribed it. I took 0.5mg (one pill) 2-3 times a day and at night. It doesn't last long, but it's enough to get you through panicky times. I'm still taking 1/2 a pill at night only b/c I've always had trouble sleeping. However, it's supposed to be addictive, so docs are cautious about prescribing it.
Do you still think you need something, or do you feel like you're doing okay? I agree with your doc that what you're feeling is normal, but that doesn't mean it's livable! The psychiatrist I saw in the hospital also told me it's normal, but he gave me something anyway!!!
~Nicola
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