Thanks Guys! I have absolutely NO intention of getting with him nor anyone else.
I am so crushed that my H has really cut all the ties this time. I can't pick myself back up all the way yet. The last thing I need is another man. . . I may never want another one. I mean I REALLY love Kevin . . .despite EVERYTHING. I couldn't imagine feeling that way about anyone else. Nor do I want to.
Well obviously I didn't get to go out this morning. Maybe tomorrow. MAYBE. They had hay down and they had to get it bailed . . . so we had to cancel for today. It's suppose to rain later . . . . I am going stir crazy . . but I don't want to leave the house. . . It's the weirdest feeling ever. My Mom and Dad invited me to go to Wal-Mart with them . . . but given my mothers mood lately . . I think that would be a horrible idea. That and they want to take Felina and have my sister watch Kiya . . I'm worried about leaving her. I know she's OK for now . . But I just think I could lose her and I should spend all the time I can now with her. . . I was worried about going with my friend this morning for peetsake. AYE!!
THIS HAS GOT TO GET BETTER . . . I CAN'T STAND IT.
I think about my H ALL the time. I miss him!!! I think about all the fun things they are doing and I think about how I have no one. I am miserable.
