Well I got something accomplished anyway. Not that you'd know it just to walk right in if you've haven't been here in the last week.
I took all of my H's stuff (aside from a few of the tee shirts that were common property that I will wear) and almost threw it in the dumpster . . . BABY STEPS folks . . baby steps. . . . but I opted to put it in my over crowded hornet infested shed . .
So it's at least out of my house and out of my sight and out of my mind for awhile. I also took our "memory box" EVERYTHING from our relationship from love letters to wedding rings to baby congrats. and I put it out in the shed as well. That may never make it to the dumpster . . . but the girls may like to see it all someday. Maybe.
I organized one whole closet . . . WOW! If you would have seen the closet you'd understand. I got my dishes caught up. I got some laundry half done . . . I swept the floors . . . I cleaned up Felina's bedroom. Now to tackle getting rid of Felina toys AND cleaning my bedroom. My bedroom could take a year. So don't worry about me having an "gentlemen callers" I'd be embarrassed to take them to my room. . LOL! It's really awful. Our cloths have flown off hangers and out of drawers and into heaps (all clean mind you). Jeesh. All in my bedroom at that.
Imagine.
That was my day in a nutshell. . . I just keep thinking that my H is going start calling me . . and somehow will manage to at least be friends. I keep sincerely hoping that he will realize the sitch with his daughter should not just be shrugged off . . and he'll actually take interest. I do pray for him everynight . . . . sincerely . . and most nights I mention Cassie to God as well. Most of the time I'm thinking of a plague of toads while I am asking God to touch their hearts and their lives and such. But I do pray that my H will happy . . and mean it. I'm trying I REALLY am.
Well I guess my work isn't quite finished . . maybe you all (will get some tonight)<---this is what I had written . . AMY I THINK YOUR CONVO IS INFLUENCING MY BRAIN . . . good thing I proof read . . now then maybe you all will get online some tonight . . it's been pretty dead today.
Quote: Well I guess my work isn't quite finished . . maybe you all (will get some tonight)<---this is what I had written . . AMY I THINK YOUR CONVO IS INFLUENCING MY BRAIN . . . good thing I proof read . . now then maybe you all will get online some tonight . . it's been pretty dead today.
HAAAA!
Girl my thread just got BAD. I don't know why they haven't locked that deviant thing yet.
It's all good now. I will never go exploring on the internet again. EVER.
Quote: (I'm writing that 100X on a chalk board tonight).
You definately should, you NAUGHTY NAUGHT women you !!
Jeesh . . influencing us young 'uns . . .
I'm telling ya . . . .
hmmm . . it's XXX too hot for anyone under 18 . .
THAT'S IT YOUR THREAD SHOULD COME WITH A DISCLAIMER!! . . HAHHA
That's alright Amy. You'd just better end up in church today
There's really nothing new for me to say about my sitch. MORE cleaning for me today. Yikes!
I miss my H with a passion. BUT . . there's nothing I can do . . . not for him. He told me he was "at work" as in on the road when I talked to him on Thursday. But that doesn't make sense. I don't know what to think. I just have to stop thinking about it . . that's the hard part.
Well that guy didn't show up yesterday . . THANK GOD! Maybe he just won't come around for awhile. I am dreading it . . .
Well I'll be back around later . . . Hope you all have a wonderful morning.
Can't get H off my mind today! I'm having one of those crappy days . . where nothing has gone wrong so I feel even worse. I just keep thinking about him being with her and doing all the fun things he and I did . . . it's breaking my heart. Memory lane got bumpy Amy . . cause I don't feel like I'm the only one walking down it.
I just want to pummel her into a bloody pulp. I better never see her again or so help me God I'll break her nose. Or break a few ribs.
OK . . so I could but I won't really . . . I don't want to look bad it court. It just makes me feel better to say it outloud . . that way I can at least half act like I am really mentally tough . .and this isn't breaking my heart.
If I beat the crap outta her do you think they'd call it a crime of passion?? LOL!
I'm just in a bad mood and I'd like a fight about now . . . The other Emily has been in the same mood . . maybe we could just beat the crap outta each other and call it square. Of course I don't think we could hit each other . . . we're too close. Besides we fight the same . . we'd both end up with a broke rib or split lip or something . . .no hair pulling for us country girls. LOL!
OK . . . well . . I have to go wash something . . or something . . geesh . . .
Quote: If you hear they're coming down my way let me know and I'll beat the crap outta her for ya!
Thanks Amy!
I'll let you know . . .
I have no idea where they would be going now.
Maybe when my H decides to pull his head out of his a$$ and realize we can still be friends.
You have NO IDEA how many people want to kick the crap outta my H. . . it's really quite funny.
My friends are looking for the big orange Schneider trucks EVERYWHERE . . hoping it'll be him. . LOL
Alright . . . It'll probably be afternoon before I get on tomorrow . . I'm going horseback riding tomorrow morning. Should be lots of fun.
I did a lot of nothing today. I just wasn't in the mood to accomplish anything. Enh . . day today.
I am thinking about my H A LOT . . . I keep wondering where he is and what he's up to (with OW of course) . . . I wonder if he ever thinks of me or the girls. I wonder if he worries about Kiya at all. She's really number one on my brain . . . but I have wait the six weeks before I can find anything else out (Like wether it's definately just her bladder or whether it is all kidney related.) I can't set dates like that with my H . . like in 6 weeks we'll sit down and reevalute the sitch. There's really no more hope. I'm still waiting to see if he filed for the D . . . and I'm curious to see if he'll send his daughter a b-day card (her birthday is the 10th) . . . I'm also expecting those court dates from domestic relations this week.
Maybe that little conference will be sort of slap in the face for him . . . I'm hoping to have a friend take me down instead of my Dad. That way my parents can watch the girls . . . and I can go without the stess of interagations from my family.
So anywho . . I'll see you all tomorrow afternoon. HAVE A GREAT NIGHT AND WONDERFUL MORNING! Pray for my family as always . . . I hope I can get back to a totally sane place soon !
you are going to tell him to sit down you have something important you need to tell him and it is crucial he listens
then you will tell him I am just coming out of a very difficult relationship with Kevin that has bounced me all over the place I have no intentions of getting into another relationship with anyone - I may change my mind when the girls are a lot older - but I do not need another boyfriend I just need a friend - and being a friend means not hitting on me, pressuring me or making me uncomfortable tell him you don't mean to upset him or hurt his feelings but the choice is his - he can be a friend or he can leave and be an acquaintance
its not that hard Emily - the only thing here is how much do you care about his feelings? and if you do care because he is a friend then from his point of view you need to make it clear that you do not want him to be anymore than a friend otherwise in the long run he gets hurt more
so be clear - be straight - and be upfront
one positive thing in your life your posting on the thread seems to be settling down thats good
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