That is very serious, T2SP. So who knows what can happen if he was smoking pot... My gut feeling is this is not his fault, though. I don't know... That's just a definite feeling I have. And I am NO "Kevin" fan, that's for damn sure.
you burn up threads faster than a speeding bullet wow
I realise that when you get down you post on here and that it is most likely that there are big chunks of your life where you do ok
why don't you try and put a positive spin on your thread for awhile and tell us about the good things you are accomplishing by posting in the negative a lot you drag yourself down emotionally - you keep the circle of negative thoughts and feelings going try posting postive and thinking positive just for a little while it will have an effect on how you feel and how you handle things
When I had my second DB coaching session this week, my coach began with "so what's got better since last time", and "what have you done to make that happen", forcing me to come up with some positives! I left it feeling like I'd atually made some progress.
You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him discover it in himself. Galileo Galilei
I do realize that it is probably NOT his fault . . . sh*t happens as they say.
It's just a possiblity, one I think finally need to be address.
This wasn't something I try to hide RB this was something I denied. It was something I convinced myself couldn't be true. My H couldn't have a drug problem.
The abuse YES I HIDE. That's not something I could fool myself into denying.
My friend Emily came over lastnight and we were talking about it. I know he popped A LOT of "diet pills" (speed effect) and I also know that he took ridaline (sp?) (I guess this has the same effect . . makes you speed up). Um . . . I guess people would ask her what he was on after we would from places (because of the way he looks).
Then her and I got to talking more and she asked me about his behaviour when he would here. Like he would come up and then he would CRASh . .just totally . . wouldn't wake up for crap CRASH. The second day he would be here he would start to feel sick (headache/stomach upset/ etc) Sometimes he'd get so bad his he would shake . . . when I would ask him about it he would tell me if was because he hadden't had his "caffiene" (like Mt. Dew/Jolt/ coffie/ etc) Yeah. . .
MY H the drug addict. Who'd have thought. Not me. . I know he did a lot of that stuff in highschool . . but he was clean when we met and he stopped EVERYTHING for me. I don't know why he picked it back up.
If it's the reason that I am going through all this alone with my baby girl . . . I'd kill him sooner than look at him.
I'd like to ask him . . but I wouldn't get a truthful answer anyway.
Hmmm . . a positive. (for bj) hmmm . . . I can't think of a single one. I just had a rough day yesterday.
I've almost gotten to celebrate two years with Felina (Aug 10) There's one . .
Now let me add this . . I can't believe that guy. He'll be back . . . he won't take no for an answer (makes me VERY VERY uncomfortable.) He just kept asking me why I was tense and seemed uncomfortable and then would quickly say, "Don't be uncomfortable with me.) Guys I don't know what I am going to do about him. I kept doing EVERYTHING to get the point across (aside from total ignorance and throwing him out.) I don't want to hurt his feelings . . he's a nice enough guy when he's not "romantically" interested in you.
Quote: I can't believe that guy. He'll be back . . . he won't take no for an answer (makes me VERY VERY uncomfortable.) He just kept asking me why I was tense and seemed uncomfortable and then would quickly say, "Don't be uncomfortable with me.) Guys I don't know what I am going to do about him. I kept doing EVERYTHING to get the point across (aside from total ignorance and throwing him out.) I don't want to hurt his feelings . . he's a nice enough guy when he's not "romantically" interested in you.
Does he just invite himself over? Please don't invite him in. Emily, this guy's feelings NEED to be hurt right now. He needs to learn that you are still married and it's not appropriate for you to begin another relationship until if and when you are divorced.
Emily, if you want to change that, you can file for D, but this guy is too desperate to be a good candidate for you anyway. My fear is that you'll fall for another guy too soon, simply because the pain and lonliness are so intense ... I'm very glad that you're pushing this guy away.
The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth." (Psalm 145:18)
Quote: Does he just invite himself over? Please don't invite him in. Emily, this guy's feelings NEED to be hurt right now. He needs to learn that you are still married and it's not appropriate for you to begin another relationship until if and when you are divorced.
Emily, if you want to change that, you can file for D, but this guy is too desperate to be a good candidate for you anyway. My fear is that you'll fall for another guy too soon, simply because the pain and lonliness are so intense ... I'm very glad that you're pushing this guy away.
YES he comes right in without knocking too. Creepy . . I started having to lock my door AT ALL TIMES. Just to keep him from walking in.
No RB I don't want to change anything. I told my H after AmyC and I talked about this. That it'll be almost 2 years until we are divorced. Because of the way he is filing it . . . I don't know if you caught that convo or not.
I don't want to be divorced . . . I don't want a relationship. If I did decide to date . . he could be LAST man on the planet and I still wouldn't get with him. I happen to think that not smelling is an IMPORTANT quality.
Well I just got back from the parade downtown. Felina had a blast grabbing all the candy. She got a whole hat full of candy. WOW!
So nothing else new. I keep wondering what I did to make my karma so crappy. I mean I just feel like I've been heaped on lately.
1.) My marriage is ending for another women (who he loves more than he could ever love me.) 2.) My brand new baby is "ill". . . I'm scared to death I'll lose her. 3.) I've got a creepy guy coming around all the time . . I'm REALLY uncomfortable with it.
Jeesh next I won't be allowed to sit at that cool table at lunch right guys. I'm trying . . . I swear. Let's see now . . what can I do to correct my problems. 1.) NOTHING 2.) PRAY LONG AND HARD 3.) Tell him off . . . I don't know if he would stop even then. I honestly am a little scared.
OK . . . well I guess now I have a rough idea of where I am going. I can't believe everything that's going on. I feel like I'm dreaming . . .
I do have a hard time standing up for myself. That I think is why he was so insistant the other night. I kept moving to another side of the couch (I have a sectional) and he would just move right with me and kept putting his arm around me or trying to lay on me. . I just kept moving. I tried to explain it to him that I wasn't looking for a relationship (I know I said this)
I feel like crap because he even tried anything . . it makes me feel like I cheated or something . . yuck. I don't know how my H ever really did cheat.
Well no divorce papers yet. I don't know if he really filed or not. Just the way he was talking it sounded like he had . . but he may not have. I guess will see.
I have to go clean my house . . the "tornado" has wrecked everything below 3 feet! LOL! I'll be back around later . . hopefully with a sense of accomplishment . . . probably not (she tears it down faster than I can put it up!)
