loosing hope and hurting

[seporateddadof2]

Thank you to all for your responces. I am still giving myself time to think before I act. I have decided to let most issues go since I wouldnt really gain anything by complaining about them. I find myself in a different position than I was in 6 months ago. I am now confident secure happy and independent. I know what I want ask for it and truely believe I deserve what i ask for. I have become the H a W would want to have so when is it her turn? I am getting tired of her coasting and putting in zero effort. I deseve better. I dont blame her for not wanting to go back to our unhappy M. I dont want to go back to it either. I want the R I know we could have. So this is a verry different sitch than the one I started out in. I am going to get comfortable in it before I decide to make any changes or decisions. Thank you to all again for your input. I appreciate your incouragement and sympathies.