I don't know ... stubborness; lack of any better ideas; knowing I haven't let go yet; those brief moments of happiness, sharing a joke, when things could almost be back to normal; knowing my H has made a collosal mistake he just doesn't realise it yet; fear of change; fear of being financially ruined; not wanting to be a quitter or a statistic; fear I won't meet anyone else; because I still love him despite what he's done to me and I think there's a better man in there somewhere ....
You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him discover it in himself. Galileo Galilei
