Hi SDof2! There definitely are good days, better days, and just yucky days. For me, it's my kids. It's been a bit rough emotionally the last couple of weeks for me and the kids. My mom asked me last nite if H has any days off, why he can't call just to speak with the kids. I didn't have much to say. I know he's been working a heck lot more than before b/c of a promotion he is getting. I felt bad b/c she said that they miss him. I asked if she asked them or did they tell her. She said they told her they miss their daddy. It pains me to hear that, so today I sent him a text mess. to "please make an effort to see or call the kids b/c they are missing him." He called them.
I think when much hasn't changed on the part of the other S, it's easier to let go even more. I know I have to keep pulling myself up when I start feeling like that, but it's hard. My brain says one thing and then my heart says something else. If they'd only give us something to grasp on to give more hope of the sitch, but I don't know. I have yet to determine if I've forgiven him. I know it's said that forgiveness is a gift you give to yourself, but how do you do that when the other R isn't completely over? Don't know if helped or not. Keep chuggin' along. Like you said, I think it was a good idea you give yourself a little extra time.
