loosing hope and hurting

[seporateddadof2]

It has been a rolercoaster week. The Ocoee trip was great. I came back and was suspended from work for something stupid I did. during the folowing weekend my W left OM and hid from him at my house. I spent the eve at a friends. She has been yo yo ing since saying she still wants to be independant and not date anyone. OM still hasnt moved out of their apt although I believe that they arnt together. W was mad at me for spending the night out wich sparked some productive R talks. We agree it is necessary to spend time apart and truely seporated. Mon I was fired for the stupid mystake. That nocked me down a bit but compaired to seporation it was a breeze. W and I have been getting along at a distance. I have resisted calling her unless absolutely necessary. spent wed thurs and fri with my girls after school. during the day I have been cleaning and being semi productive. staying buisy etc. I drop the girls off at 7 then I am forcing myself to go out. I dont feel good but I start my new job Mon and I dont know when my next day off will be. Over all not a bad week because I feel successful that I was able to be detached from my W during her sitch and think semi clearly when she ran to me for help. semi clearly because I have been really angry at her now that I dont have OM to blame. My GAL and PMA and other DB skills really helped me get through getting fired. I know I will be ok no matter what and I know I will be happy. I dont need that job to survive my world will be fine with out it.
So that was my rolercoaster week. I choose to see the blessings in it.