loosing hope and hurting

[seporateddadof2]

Thank you all for the good advice. I felt in my gut that the OM Q wouldnt push her away and it didnt. What I didnt plan on was my own emotional reaction to her answer. She never before admitted to the A and in some ways her answer solidified it for me. We talked again later yesterday. I apologised for getting emotional and explained that I am trying to be ok with everything but sometimes are harder than others. She was surprized because she said she thought I had moved on and wasnt interested in reconciling. I think she was fishing because she ended up telling me she was ending it with OM and was considering getting back together in the future. She is still concerned about how she will be able to get over the pain of our past prob though. We talked a long while. I listened alot. I think we made progress yesterday. Im trying not to get my hopes up. I have felt that the OM issue was in our way before because not only was he a distraction but also an influence in her leaving. He seduced her and sabatoged my efforts telling her I would never change how can she put up with my behavior etc. yesterday was the first time I have asked about their R since I suspected the A. not wanting to push them together I left the issue alone. I only asked b/c she brought up he might be moving out. I wont be asking anymore Q about OM again. I cant handle tha answers right now.
With OM in the picture everything was on hold and I was left to wait until tha A ended to hope for any repair to start. If he is gone atleast she wont have him to fulfill her needs and distract her from missing me. I feel with him out of the picture my DB efforts will carry more weight. we will see. there is alot more that happened yesterday too but that will be another post I think. for now I am going to sit back see what happens with OM.