H and I had a long chat via email. His perception is that I am just "not happy" and that he keeps trying do more and more and still I don't seem happy. I pointed out that I have never complained that he doesn't "do" enough. He acknowledges the disconnect and that he worries we are in some kind of "downward spiral" and that he loves me too much to let that happen. Again, I say, didja notice that we haven't had sex for a month since our vacation when we were enjoying a nice sex life? Could the lack of sex be the cause of the disconnect rather than a byproduct?? For me, it is . We didn't come to any resolution but at least he acknowledges that things aren't great. Unfortunately, we are coming into the holidays where H usually experiences We'll see how it goes but I'm guessing I will be soothing myself as usual.
OTOH - good news from the endocrinologist. The thyroid numbers are getting better. Now she is tending toward pregnancy thyroitoxicosis that should resolve itself postpartum. She says if it is Graves disease then it won't resolve later on and we'll deal with that then. In the meantime the baby is being watched closely so things should be ok.
