Just checking in. Well I am now in my second trimester (almost 15 weeks, it certainly goes fast) and this pregnancy has been smooth sailing on the physical end but not the medical end. I am seeing an endocrinologist due to a high thyroid stimulating hormone reading on my prenatal bloodwork. They haven't put me on meds but are watching the bloodwork every four weeks. My fancy Level II ultrsound was very good but the combo of that plus age plus other bloodowork resulted in a high-risk of Down's syndrome (1 in 80). There is a 98% chance that everything is ok but if there is a problem I want to know so I will go for an amnio on Nov 6, followed by another fancy ultrasound on Nov 20. In my heart I feel that everything will be ok - the baby looked great on ultrasound, the perinatologist said that he didn't see anything that would cause concern, baby was moving all over and I've already felt some early movement. H has been terrific and very comforting but not in a patronizing way (I hate to be patronized).
H has really stepped up in the gestures department. We had a lovely vacation and when we got back he had an immediate four day business trip. I received flowers at the office two days into the trip with a note saying how much he would miss me. We have only had sex once a week on the average, twice on vacation but he has been much more erotic than he usually is. He has initiated each time. I have had relatively low libido because of being tired with the pregnancy but that keeps me happier with the low frequency so it's all good.
The first weekend of November I am going to see my best friend in Florida (a trip H inisted I take) where we shall bask in all things girly - St. Augustine, a trip to the spa, outlet shopping (not a lot, neither of us are big shoppers), leisurely lunches with salads and iced tea at frou frou cafes and things like that. I can't wait!
I feel much more positive about my marriage in general and altogether less "grasping" for something that I wanted that seemed always out of my reach. I know that I will probably get discontented again with the amount or less than experimental nature of our SL but maybe that is just me - maybe I am just a "seeker" - I always seek to improve myself, question everything, want to learn more, get better at things etc...and maybe I carry that over to my R and my SL in both healthy and unhealthy ways. The unhealthy ways create resistance in H and the feedback loop just isn't good.
