I checked up on your posts a while ago and saw on your thread that you were taking a break from the boards for a while. I haven't been posting much either, because there just doesn't seem to be a lot new to say...
H did respond to that once sentence email I sent, "so does that mean you want S4 and I to be with you or not?" He didn't answer my question, of course. He talked about how it all depends on where he's stationed and he couldn't give me any answers until then. He said he knew that wasn't what I wanted to hear. He also sent a follow up email that just said "p.s. I love you," because he forgot to say that in the first email.
I was happy to get that message from him. Even though it's the same old thing-he either isn't getting what I am asking, or he doesn't want to answer. I was NOT asking him what would HAPPEN after he transferred. I was asking him what he WANTED to happen, regardless of what the reality was going to be. But, atleast he responded.
So I replied and thanked him for the response and said that it helped me, but I reiterated what my question really was and that I wasn't asking him to predict the future for me...
And he emailed back. Again, he didn't answer my question. But he just asked if I would like southern VA, which is one of his top picks.
I responded that I would, even though it doesn't matter to me WHERE we go so much as that he WANTS us to be together.
That was our last communication. I don't think he's had Internet access for the past few days. I am glad he is sounding like he is thinking about us living together again. And that is comforting. And I know it's not good DBing to be so wrapped up in what he SAYS. But, damn, that's all I have to go on here. And I'm dealing with higher stakes too. Relocating again, with the nasty possibility of having to do another quick re-relocation with S4 and I if it doesn't work out. And S4 is going to be school age by the time this stuff happens. And the more of this extreme relocation lifestyle I live, the harder it is on my work history.
WHY, WHY, WHY can he not answer my question? Should I not NEED him to tell me what he WANTS before I make more drastic changes to my life? Is he just not understanding what I am asking him? How many more times can I ask before it starts causing a problem?
