Well HOORAY for your H!!! he did a much better job than you did! So what's up with that? I know you had your defenses up, but to let it show like you did?
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I just came out and asked him if he was sleeping there on the couch and if I could get him a blanket and pillow.

Gee, ya think you could make it any tougher for him? and the grocery store without him, and hanging back. He really hung in there while you made it difficult.

Opti, just try to relax and have a good time while you have this opportunity and enjoy H and let him create and remember good times with you and S4. Don't plan the future with or without him, yet. Ok? hugs to you.

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.