Not really. On the phone he said he COULD come up this weekend, not exactly that he WOULD. When we ended the phone conversation he just said to email him my decision about whether I was going to leave town while he visited S4 or not, then he would make plans to come up here. I think I've decided that I'm staying. I can't bring myself to leave while he's here. I may or may not end up taking my entire two weeks of vacation depending on when and if he shows up and what he is like. But I still just don't know what the right thing is to do. So I decided that I don't have to make any decisions either. I'm not emailing him and telling him my plans. Not out of spite, but just because I've come to a point where I can't deal with this anymore. Maybe he'll show up, maybe he won't. My vacation is flexible. I can always just show up at work instead.
I did email H my plans for S4's birthday party the last week in August. H just emailed back askign what S4 wanted. So I told him. That has been the extent of our communication since the phone call.
On a good note. I have been in touch with the old friends that I grew up with on the west coast. I stayed up until 2 am last night talking to one of them. She didn't even know H left the first time. It was wierd running down the last two years of my life for her. The last time I saw her I was on my way to Alaska to be reunited with H, and here I am in Wisconsin two bombs later. We are planning to take a trip to Seattle where I am looking at relocating in the not to distant future. She has family there that I might be able to stay with and I have another friend we grew up with who may also be able to meet us there. Hopefully we can all meet on the westcoast for a trip in the next month or so and I can begin exploring a new life with people who I know have loved me since I was just a baby.
