I am feeling a little better about H's lack of contact. Last night I emailed MIL to see if she had heard from H. I didn't say anything else but that I was wondering if she'd heard from him and I was concerned. She forwarded the last email he sent to her. She said it was in response to an email she sent saying she was worried that she hadn't heard from him in a long time. H's email to her in response was almost identical to the one he sent me a day or two later. It alluded a little more to how many hours he's working right now (meaning any hour that he's not sleeping).
So, I know it's not just me he's not talking to. He said his leave is scheduled to start the middle of next week, but he still doesn't know if he can go. I'm thinking at this very late stage, he probably won't get leave this month.
On another note, I got my "thanks, but no thanks," letter for the job I applied for here. I knew I didn't have a chance, but there is so little available to me in this area, that I had to apply for SOMETHING. But, the letter just made me realize that I need to gear up for a lot of rejection in the coming year. Not to be morbid about it, but it is a natural part of a job search. And of course I'll be dealing with feelings of rejection with H, what ever the outcome there. So, I need to go zen and start sitting with my feelings of rejections and just accepting them for what they are instead of running away from them.
