Hi All, Haven't posted much recently as there is really nothing earth shattering going on. I fear I am still stuck in Limbo. Wednesday H came home early so we could drive out to my parent's to pick up our D10. D9 stayed at a friends so since we just had S5, we took the convertable. It was a beautiful afternoon flying down the highway with the wind blowing thru our hair. When we started out, H was extremely quite and lost in thought. I got the feeling (now this just could be my overactive imagination) that something happened with OW; like maybe she was pissed that he left early to go with me. After about 45 minutes he "snapped" out of it and started talking and acting like himself.
Thursday I had to drop my car off for some repair work, kids and I had to walk home 3 miles. The car was done @ 3 p.m., so I called H to see if he was on his way home, no answer. When he wasn't here by 4, kids and I walked back to pick up the car then had to drive to pickup D9. H called my cell around 4:45 saying how sorry he was that I had to walk, that he was planning on coming home and taking me. I calmly stated that since I didn't hear from him, I decided to walk before the place closed and that I liked the exercise anyway. When we got home he was very nice and asked if I wanted to sit outside with him.
Other than that, not much to report. I really couldn't tell you if he is still involved with OW. He seems to be trying with me though. The problem I have now is a total lack of trust. I am always suspicious of his every move. I wonder if he is acting nice to me and initiating hugs and kisses and doing nice things for me as a cover up for his lies. I wonder if by me tolerating and accepting his behaviour and "acting as if" that he is actually exploiting my good will.
Tomorrow we are going away on a last mini vacation before the kiddies go back to school. He seems very excited about it. Maybe he and I will have a chance to "talk", will keep ya'all posted.
